Thursday, May 10, 2012

OK now...

I am slowly resurfacing from the loss of my Mom! She had no illness, no pain, and no suffering. I had spent the whole day prior with her all day shopping and then out to dinner with a friend and family. I was with her until 10:30pm the night before she slipped away in her sleep! It was a total shock and everyone is still in a state of disbelief! She was so healthy. Only 75. Her birthday was going to be May 19...

I am grateful that she was blessed with such an easy passing.. When I think of all the things that she could have possibly gone through, I can see beyond my own grief to how fortunate she was!

I had had the past 5 months off and spent so much time with her daily that I wouldn't have had otherwise. WOW! It was from God! I will be eternally grateful for that.

I will miss her forever!

Thanks for all of your wonderfully supportive and loving comments! Again, I appreciate each of you so much for being a part of my life.

Oh...and get this...I found the forum she had posted on inside of, and we found she had commented and been a part of that group for 10 years! Can you believe that? I am in the process of reading back as she talked about family, friends, her own self and what she was up to. I am so happy to have this record of her as well. Isn't that so cool???

Now...on the other front...the day Mom expired I got the call about my new job!!! I got it!! I will be successfully having a midlife career change! I was officially a new employee as of today! I start my job on Monday at the library! My dream job! I found out they will pay for a Masters degree in Library Science as well, if I want to try for it!!! Not sure it will really pay off (except for the knowledge gaining)since I am already 55 years old. I will not be able to complete it before I would be ready to retire! Hahaha. Would love to try though!

Now...I have to tell you the part about how I think Mom helped me to get the job somehow. Her prayers must have helped. She would light a candle for me every night and pray I would get it. I found out that there were TWO HUNDRED applicants!!! They narrowed it down to 44 interviews. I got one of two positions!!! So I will always believe that it was my Moms continual prayers that got me the job!!! Thanks Mom!!!

I have to go clothes shopping tomorrow. I need pants which I dearly hate shopping for...I am an awful fit, I suppose. But it must be done. Sadly.

Will be letting you know how the job goes next week. picture tonight...sorry for that. I have taken a few pictures of swans (in a hotel lobby), and baby ducklings (in grocery store parking lot)the past couple of will post next time.

God bless you all.


walk2write said...

God is awesome, and sometimes we are awake and still enough to catch a little glimpse of it like you did, Julie. I wish you all the best in your new job. Take care and God bless!

Dandelion and Daisy said...

Congratulations! That is so is great to have a job you love. I'll bet you are excited.

It is a blessing , for your mom, that she went quietly and painlessly. It is just so hard on those who are left behind.
My mother passed away 14 years ago and I am convinced she watches over us, my own guardian angel.

Good to hear from you today!

Snippety Gibbet said...

Oh, Julie. I haven't been in the blogging world much lately, and I had no idea what you were going through. I am so sad to hear this news about your Mom. My heart goes out to you. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Jan

Diane AZ said...

I'm glad you were able to spend a lot of time with your mom before she passed. You new job sounds wonderful, working in a library would be a dream job for me too.

Bobbie Lynn said...

I'm so happy for you and your new job. I believe in prayers and it is powerful. I am so happy that you got to spend a lot of time with your Mom on your time off work. A great blessing. As time goes on, I hope the hurt will not be so bad. You will see your Mom again and that will be forever! Have a beautiful Mother's Day.

Blessing to you.

Pudgeduck said...

Julie, I am so sorry to read of your Mother's passing. what a blessing for her and your family that she went so gently. It is what we all hope for. Congrats on your dream job!!!! You are right, prayers do help!!!!!

Laure Ferlita said...

So glad to hear of all the goodness and blessings in a time of loss and hurting! Congrats on the new job—and I hope you decide to go for your dream of getting the masters!

Lisa at Greenbow said...

So good to hear from you Julie. It must mean that things are turning around for you. Grief is an odd thing. It seems to come and go. I hope your new job fills your life some since your Mom is gone. Your Mom will always be with you and a part of you. You are lucky to find her writings. What a treasure. Best of luck with your new job. Your shopping should be fun. Relax and enjoy your new clothes. Try to have a happy Mother's Day. God has certainly blessed you.

shirley said...

Julie this is a lovely post to read. I can understand how you would be pleased you mum had such an easy passing..and how wonderful you were able to spend so much time with her over the time this will create so many lovely memories for you.
Good luck with the new job on the uni course...go for it girl you know you can do it. If you dont in time to come you will wish you had so dont hesitate.

thinking of you

Unknown said...

My heartfelt sympathy for your loss.

Take time to digest it and 'feel what you feel, when you feel it'.

Penny said...

Julie what a wonderful way to go, perhaps not for you, but for her.
So glad you have the dream job, hope it all goes well for you.

marianne said...

Although the subject is sad there is so much positive and hope in this post of yours!
Again your Mom died much too early cant emphasize that enough, but the way that is something you wish for everyone you love.
My Mom is 86 and she is in a home Slowly loosing her mind and dignity.
Cant say I am happy about her getting old this way........
How fortunate you were to have spent all this time with her and that last evening. So many people stay behind with a feeling I wish I had....... you can only say I am glad I.......
I know these are only little things of comfort dear.

I am happy you got your dream job!
Bet your Mom watches over you and is so very proud of you!
(I am too :))

big hugs to you dear!

Serena Lewis said...

I know losing your Mum has been very painful but I do agree that passing away peacefully in one's sleep is the best way to go. And how awesome that you got to spend all that time with her over the months you haven't been working. It's like it was meant to be that way. I too believe your Mum helped you with the job...CONGRATULATIONS!!!

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers ~ xo

Lynn Cohen said...

Dear Julie,

I missed your previous post some how. I am so so saddened to learn your devistating news. How sad to lose your mom so suddenly. I'm glad the two of you had spent such quality time together recently.
Yes, a good way to go...but what was it? A stroke? As a 'think I am healthy soon to be 71 yr old' this is quite daunting to hear about. Guess that just makes me appreciate your loss all the more. And appreciate LIFE.

Then on a brighter note, you got the job of your dreams! How wonderful that is. Enjoy that.

And wishing you a smooth transistion through your grieving process, which takes time.


Teri said...

How wonderful and prophetic that you quit your job and got to spend all that time with your Mother. I know her prayers helped get the job.

Hugs for today and hugs for tomorrow. It will be a tough day but remember all the good times you and her had.

NotSoAngryRedHead said...

Many congrats to you on your wonderful success! Such a wonderful opportunity!

I'm glad you've found a source to continue learning more about your mom! That's also great news!

Anonymous said...

So sorry for your loss of your mom. She was much too young.
It was good that she passed over to heaven peacefully in her sleep.
I lost my mom that way three years ago on May 19,altho she'd had emphysema. I too had been laid off work and was able to be around for her more.
I know you will miss your mom, especially just to talk to about the day to day stuff. My prayers are with you.

Congrats on your new job! I know you've mentioned how much you'd like a library job. I hope you decide to go on with your learning, even if it is just for yourself.

Susan said...

It is amazing how things seem to fall into place...and it can only be divine inspiration. So glad that you got your dream job. I had to smile when I was reading your post...we are almost the same age and working in the library would be a dream job for me, too. Seems we have a lot in common.

Again, I'm so sorry about your mom but very happy that you were able to spend a lot of time with her. Good luck with the new job.

soulbrush said...

What a touching post J. And what a truly wonderful way (for her) to pass away, having had such a full life and 5 months of pleasure and a day of utter joy with you. Hard to get over ths shock, but I am so glad she she didn't suffer- there is far too much of that in this world. AND yes I agree with you, I do also believe that your mom 'sent' this job your way. Working in a library must be so rewarding and peaceful too, and you are still young enough at 55 to do whatever you want to. Love you J and thinking of you and your dear mom as I sit here typing. xxxxx

Candice Suter.....Sweetstuff said...

Hi sweet Julie. I remember you telling us about your Mom a while ago and I was just looking at a recent when I remembered. It is crazy how time slips away and I am sorry I forgot to check in. I feel so bad about your Mom. You should feel happy about the wonderful time you got to spend with her. In that respect you are lucky. You will always miss her but it will get easier.

And congratulations on your job! It sounds like the perfect thing for you and perfect job.

Judi said...

Julie..*hugs*. How did I ever miss this post. You are such a strong and brave lady and you are so positive...and upbeat. I know you had an awesome relationship with your mother. God is great. Everything was in place before she passed, you had the time to spend wiht her and she helped your healing with some new direction and positive thoughts of her when she passed away and you got the job she prayed you would get.

Oh will always miss your mother...we always do...but you are so very lucky to have had each other and up to the last moments like you did...those good feelings will help to get you through this. She sounds like she was a lovely lady...*hugs*.

Take care of you Julie...give your family a hug...